i'm gonna get in trouble, i wanna start a fight

so planning a wedding is super weird i've decided. even though i'm not planning it persay, it's just weird to think that in a year my sister and rob will be married and stuff. it's gonna be an epic wedding though, i'm stoked for sure.

so i'm reverting back to my vegetarian ways of earlier this year...i was kind of sad when i had to start eating meat again because my doctor said, but i talked to him again and he gave me ways to do it "right" this time.

so i'm entirely a sucker when it comes to everything. someone asks me to do something and i just do it without hesitation. i don't know if it's a bad thing (it is at times) but i really don't know what else to do really. i've tried the whole asshole thing before and it just wasn't me, so wo knows.

i invented a breakfast concoction and it's delicious. berries, banana, carrot juice and some yogurt. i threw in some wheatgrass today and it's great, i love it.

so i had my first day of "work" yesterday that wasn't training. it was fun, the nice thing about it is people are very rarely upset when they talk to me. they're usually just wondering about an order they placed or have questions about outdoors gear. looooooooove it whoo!

i'm such a home body these days. i feel like i'm just drifting away from people. i don't really talk to anyone anymore other than the occasional hello or what's up. everyone just found "new friends" which is awesome.

so i had a really awkward conversation with my extended family on saturday at Austin's football game. they seriously asked me "so if you're not going on a mission, why aren't you dating anyone? have you thought about getting married? are you going to be like your sister and wait until you're 24?"

--i really just didn't know how to answer that...the last question was extremely hurtful, like me and my sister are freaks because we didn't/aren't getting married at like 20-21. i realize it's abnormal in Utah but seriously? maybe I don't want to just date anyone, i'd rather find someone who i really like and shit. oh well, we've always been the outcasts of the family. at least they're actually talking to us now and not calling me the spawn of satan (my dad).

speaking of Austin, i'm taking him under my wing. his older brother (jordan) is such a douche it's not even funny. he doesn't do anything with him, so i find myself taking austin to dinner and mini golfing and stuff. i just feel like he needs an older brother type to lead him in the right direction in this crazy day and age. he's a stud on the football field though, he's gonna be a hell of an athlete when he's older.

just some quick one liners to end this random ass blog:

park city is such a cool place
im' obsessed with the new pink song
i love weight lifting
sexdrive is a damn funny movie
i have a crush on kate nash
i need some new music, anyone who has ideas let me know

that's it, i'm through!

peace and love.

-aaron

so this one time i blogged

i'm bored, so i guess i'll write a blog.

i've officially quit WoW. i know, i know, i'm a nerd.

i absolutely freaking love my new job. it's amazing.

it's so great to go to work and be able to talk about the things i love. skiing, snowboarding, hiking, camping, etc. not only do i get to talk to customers about it, but also my coworkers.

i'm getting less excited to work at home because i want to be in that environment, but it will be awesome nonetheless, plus i can move around in the company if i wish. the biggest thing is i get a killer discount, like 40-60% off basically, it's epic.

i went to brighton this week and oh my god i'm so excited. skiing is soooooooooooo close. i can't wait to get on the slopes again. my love and passion is so near.

i have officially been alcohol free for 3 weeks now. it feels kind of good not relying on it for fun. may not be a big accomplishment, but i thought it was neat.

blogspot rocks because it saves your blogs as you're writing them. (i just closed the window on accident and it saved.)

what else? it doesn't seem like christmas is right around the corner, it's crazy man. crazy shit indeed. dani party? i'm stoked.

that's it for tonight, i'm boring blah blah.

peace and love.

-aaron

this is a story all about how...

i watched the debate. that's all i'm going to say since everyone knows my stance on politics. i thoroughly enjoyed it at points and wanted to break an old man's shoulders (again) at other times.

so i've been taking these pills called Noxycut (after doing much research on the subject). it's a knockoff of Hydroxycut which is made especially for men. has some crazy ass metabolism increasers and caffeine to burn fat blah blah blah but it also has added creatine and tribulus (which is a form of testosterone). i'm going to be straight up and honest i've been super fucking hyped*** the last couple of days. i am noticing results though, which rocks. i'll probably die from them or something, oh well, as long as i look good.

i forgot how much i love weight lifting. i got really into it at the end of senior year (high school) and it really just makes me feel good. i hurt like hell right now but it's one of those good hurts. i've thought since high school i've lost some of my "intensity" but i think i'm starting to get my competitive edge back, which could be scary haha.

since i put my 2 weeks notice in, i have successfully done 0 work in 60 hours so far. man this is awesome.

tomorrow is my last day at west valley and i couldn't be happier.

i love facebook for stalking, it's great. gives me something to do with my day while at work.

i'll probably write something later.

peace and love.

-aaron

time and time again, we fall into the depths of who we are

snow. that's really all i need to say is snow. hell yes!

so let me first just say what has been on my mind lately. i think i'm done drinking for a while. after saturday night i really just don't have a desire to anytime soon. i was so hungover and sick on sunday it wasn't even funny. the thought of alcohol makes me ill.

between tony romo/dallas cowboys and brian johnson/utah utes i'm going to have a heart attack before this football season is over.

you all can judge me all you want, but i miss playing high school football so much.

i love watching my cousins play, (jordan is on the bingham team) austin is still in little league but he's a bad ass. he's going to be such a stud when he's older. he's 10 and he has had like 3 games of 100+ yards of rushing. i love that kid to death, we're buds.

halle-fuckin-lujah! it's my last week at West Valley. i'm going to celebrate so much on thursday. if anyone wants to join in on my celebration (which is still undecided) let me know.

i feel like going on a road trip. i wish i wasn't starting at backcountry so soon (next week) because i really want to go on a road trip to somewhere.

i'm excited to find some new friends when i go back to school/start the new job. i'm in a rut with my social life.

today i started my new diet/workout plan. i've had success so far (since january) and am looking to continue my weight loss to reach my goal. i've come to realize i'm never going to be hollister/abercrombie size but i'm okay with that, my body isn't made to be like that. my shoulders are far too broad to even come close.

i'm about 6'2 and looking to get to about 240 which for that height is a very height/weight proportional weight. i'm not looking to become super skinny but have more of an athletic look. i know most of you don't care although Dani is the only one that reads i think.

i need a new place to work out once i start at backcountry, i will no longer have access to the West Valley facilities. i'm thinking of going to Lifetime Fitness. i'll just have to go in the morning (before 2 pm) or after 10:30 pm.

i really want to go out for sushi and am willing to pay if anyone wants to go.

i guess i should get back to pretending to work. i mean seriously, i'm quitting what's the point in working?

peace and love.

-aaron

was that a wolf?

can i please just say how much i love camping?

i fucking love it. life is so simple when you're camping. i mean seriously, it's just you and nature. i especially like it now since i have a single tent so i feel like it's just me while i'm sleeping.

i went to yellowstone with angie and rob. those two are so in love it's not even funny. i just hope someday i can find what they have together. they just look so happy all the time.

angie is crazy sometimes, oh well.

saw a shit-ton of bison and elk but no bears.

i think the coolest thing were the wolves we heard last night howling and barking while they were chasing an elk (this is just speculation but we're pretty sure after talking to a ranger).

i'm a pyro. i love fire. i love starting fires.

i got attacked by a crazy piece of wood.

sometimes i feel like i'm in a fraternity because i have a motorcycle. our neighbors in the campground were on motorcycles and we turned into best friends.

someone destroyed the Obama sign in our yard. not to mention the fact that i got yelled at during a stop light because i support Obama.

"go spew your liberal propaganda elsewhere you hippie!" said the 30-something year old guy in downtown south jordan.

i politley said back to him "i wasn't spewing anything, i tastefully have an obama sticker on my truck that just says "hope" on it."

then he muttered something about socialism and kids these days don't know anything and i just smiled at him and threw a piece sign.

seriously, who does that?

it's a little upsetting actually. why can't everyone be like the nice ranger lady in yellowstone who was a McCain supporter but said to me "i'm genuinely happy to see the younger generation getting involved in politics even if we don't agree."

i kind of want to be a park ranger now after seeing them work for a couple days.

i applied at backcountry.com, i have an interview on tuesday and wednesday. i'm excited but extremely nervous at the same time.

more to come later this week, i'm sure.

peace and love.

-aaron

frustration?

2 torn ligaments.

awesome. at least they don't require surgery at this point in time. basically he told me though that i'll need surgery sometime within the next 5 years.

it hurts like hell, i'm not gonna lie.

why do things have to be so fucking complicated? that's really all i have to say.

where's the metaphorical "easy" button? i've heard so much about it. i don't have things to turn to that make things easier for me. instead i usually just put up with shit until it gets better or goes away.

i'm a sucker. no, really i am. i pour my heart out too easily and it just ends up biting me in the end. i trust too easily and that's not a good thing. i used to be one that would trust a lot of people with things but i really don't think i can do that anymore.

who honestly knows what's going to happen, right? i mean everyone thinks they have an idea, but no one can actually control it. kharma is a bitch.

money isn't everything. all it does is buy things. the things i need in life can all be obtained without money. i kind of wish it was never invented and everyone just bartered still.

my mind has been racing lately, as i'm sure you can see. i just have a lot of things to figure out. that's why i started writing in my blog again. it helps me to know that i can let all my thoughts and emotions out. it's almost even more helpful knowing people i care about can read deep into my head.

i've been pretty distant lately.

it's just hard to say how i feel today when years have gone by.

peace and love.

-aaron

i followed suit and laid out on my back....imagine that

blah.

no really, blah.

that's really about the extent of my emotions these days.

i feel like i'm just rolling through life, not even running or just walking but rolling. every little bump that comes along it forces me in a different direction. one long/endless roll that makes me dizzy. as my head is spinning i feel that i need to make the big decisions in my life.

i know i'm only 20, but i feel like now is the time i need to stand up and start walking. quit rolling and take lead in my life. instead of bumps and obstacles pushing me in the other direction i'll walk over them.

i'm going back to school. it only took me a year to figure out that is the next move in my life. i wish i would have taken that year right out of high school instead of wasting 1 1/2 years of money and time.

marketing.

wanted to do it since high school, it's the only thing that has been a constant in the back of my head. sure i won't make a difference in anyones life or make a lot of money, but i feel like i'll enjoy it.

that's what i need right now is to enjoy the things i do. i've been so depressed since high school more or less. i don't know if it's more or less depressed as it is repressed. i don't know. i feel like i've grown up but at the same time i haven't.

i try to pretend that it's easy for me to meet new people. but it's not. i'm comfortable with the people i have in my life right now, but i know i need to get out and meet people. i also need to patch some old friendships and relationships that i dearly miss.

i need to find a new job. i'm finally over the whole engineering/cadd thing. i hated it and couldn't be happier with my decision.

i feel like i'm home now, like i'm coming around from a trip. not an actual trip, but more of a metaphorical trip. it was nice, but it's even better to be home.

my sister is "officially" engaged. whoo hoo. cheer. blah blah blah.
-i guess it's not as exciting since she's been living with the guy for a year now.
-i like Rob a lot, he's a good guy. like the brother i never had.

i have potentially torn ligaments in my ankle, i found out for sure this week. hopefully i don't need surgery.

i'm looking forward to winter, i don't want, i NEED to start skiing again. hopefully i can with this whole ankle thing.

i hope the best for everyone. give me a hint if you read this, i just want to know who my audience is.

peace and love.

-aaron