"I got dosed by you and
Closer than most to you and
What am I supposed to do
Take it away I never had it anyway
Take it away and everything will be okay
In you a star is born and
You cut a perfect form and
Someone forever warm
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Way upon the mountain where she died
All I ever wanted was your life
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide
All I ever wanted was your life
Show love with no remorse and
Climb on to your seahorse and
This ride is right on corse
This is the way I wanted it to be with you
This is the way that I knew that it would be with you
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Way upon the mountain where she died
All I ever wanted was your life
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide
All I ever wanted was your life
I got dosed by you and
Closer than most to you and
What am I supposed to do
Take it away I never had it anyway
Take it away and everything will be okay
Way upon the mountain where she died
All I ever wanted was your life
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide
All I ever wanted was your life"
-Red Hot Chili Peppers
don't feel like explaining
peace and love.
-aaron
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Inches
This may be about football but it has a lot of things about life as well. This has been a big part of my life, just this speech.
I don't know what to say really.
Three minutes
to the biggest battle of our professional lives
all comes down to today.
Either
we heal
as a team
or we are going to crumble.
Inch by inch
play by play
till we're finished.
We are in hell right now, gentlemen
believe me
and
we can stay here
and get the shit kicked out of us
or
we can fight our way
back into the light.
We can climb out of hell.
One inch, at a time.
Now I can't do it for you.
I'm too old.
I look around and I see these young faces
and I think
I mean
I made every wrong choice a middle age man could make.
I uh....
I pissed away all my money
believe it or not.
I chased off
anyone who has ever loved me.
And lately,
I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror.
You know when you get old in life
things get taken from you.
That's, that's part of life.
But,
you only learn that when you start losing stuff.
You find out that life is just a game of inches.
So is football.
Because in either game
life or football
the margin for error is so small.
I mean
one half step too late or to early
you don't quite make it.
One half second too slow or too fast
and you don't quite catch it.
The inches we need are everywhere around us.
They are in ever break of the game
every minute, every second.
On this team, we fight for that inch
On this team, we tear ourselves, and everyone around us
to pieces for that inch.
We CLAW with our finger nails for that inch.
Cause we know
when we add up all those inches
that's going to make the fucking difference
between WINNING and LOSING
between LIVING and DYING.
I'll tell you this
in any fight
it is the guy who is willing to die
who is going to win that inch.
And I know
if I am going to have any life anymore
it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch
because that is what LIVING is.
The six inches in front of your face.
Now I can't make you do it.
You gotta look at the guy next to you.
Look into his eyes.
Now I think you are going to see a guy who will go that inch with you.
You are going to see a guy
who will sacrifice himself for this team
because he knows when it comes down to it,
you are gonna do the same thing for him.
That's a team, gentlemen
and either we heal now, as a team,
or we will die as individuals.
That's football guys.
That's all it is.
Now, whattaya gonna do?
I don't know what to say really.
Three minutes
to the biggest battle of our professional lives
all comes down to today.
Either
we heal
as a team
or we are going to crumble.
Inch by inch
play by play
till we're finished.
We are in hell right now, gentlemen
believe me
and
we can stay here
and get the shit kicked out of us
or
we can fight our way
back into the light.
We can climb out of hell.
One inch, at a time.
Now I can't do it for you.
I'm too old.
I look around and I see these young faces
and I think
I mean
I made every wrong choice a middle age man could make.
I uh....
I pissed away all my money
believe it or not.
I chased off
anyone who has ever loved me.
And lately,
I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror.
You know when you get old in life
things get taken from you.
That's, that's part of life.
But,
you only learn that when you start losing stuff.
You find out that life is just a game of inches.
So is football.
Because in either game
life or football
the margin for error is so small.
I mean
one half step too late or to early
you don't quite make it.
One half second too slow or too fast
and you don't quite catch it.
The inches we need are everywhere around us.
They are in ever break of the game
every minute, every second.
On this team, we fight for that inch
On this team, we tear ourselves, and everyone around us
to pieces for that inch.
We CLAW with our finger nails for that inch.
Cause we know
when we add up all those inches
that's going to make the fucking difference
between WINNING and LOSING
between LIVING and DYING.
I'll tell you this
in any fight
it is the guy who is willing to die
who is going to win that inch.
And I know
if I am going to have any life anymore
it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch
because that is what LIVING is.
The six inches in front of your face.
Now I can't make you do it.
You gotta look at the guy next to you.
Look into his eyes.
Now I think you are going to see a guy who will go that inch with you.
You are going to see a guy
who will sacrifice himself for this team
because he knows when it comes down to it,
you are gonna do the same thing for him.
That's a team, gentlemen
and either we heal now, as a team,
or we will die as individuals.
That's football guys.
That's all it is.
Now, whattaya gonna do?
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Uncle John's Band
"Well the first days are the hardest days, don't you worry any more,
'Cause when life looks like Easy Street, there is danger at your door.
Think this through with me, let me know your mind,
Wo, oh, what I want to know, is are you kind?
It's a buck dancer's choice my friend; better take my advice.
You know all the rules by now and the fire from the ice.
Will you come with me? Won't you come with me?
Wo, oh, what I want to know, will you come with me?
Goddamn, well I declare, have you seen the like?
Their wall are built of cannonballs, their motto is "Don't tread on me".
Come hear Uncle John'n Band playing to the tide,
Come with me, or go alone, he's come to take his children home.
It's the same story the crow told me; it's the only one he knows.
Like the morning sun you come and like the wind you go.
Ain't no time to hate, barely time to wait,
Wo, oh, what I want to know, where does the time go?
I live in a silver mine and I call it Beggar's Tomb;
I got me a violin and I beg you call the tune,
anybody's choice, I can hear your voice.
Wo, oh, what I want to know, how does the song go?
Come hear Uncle John's Band by the riverside,
Got some things to talk about, here beside the rising tide.
Come hear Uncle John's Band playing to the tide,
Come on along, or go alone, he's come to take his children home.
Wo, oh, what I want to know, how does the song go.
-Grateful Dead"
peace and love.
-aaron
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Sunday 11/29 Playlist
My playlist for the last little bit...just felt like I needed to share:
Oh What a World - Rufus Wainwright
My Funny Valentine - Frank Sinatra
Karma Police - Radiohead
Better Together - Jack Johnson
Hey Ya (Cover) - Obadiah Parker
Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band
Weird but good mood tonight, too much to think about. Too much to talk about.
I'm scared, even moreso now.
Short tonight, maybe more later this week.
Peace and Love.
-Aaron
Oh What a World - Rufus Wainwright
My Funny Valentine - Frank Sinatra
Karma Police - Radiohead
Better Together - Jack Johnson
Hey Ya (Cover) - Obadiah Parker
Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band
Weird but good mood tonight, too much to think about. Too much to talk about.
I'm scared, even moreso now.
Short tonight, maybe more later this week.
Peace and Love.
-Aaron
Saturday, November 14, 2009
happiness is a warm gun
this one's for you sister!
10 thankfuls
1. first and foremost will always be my family, the greatest thing i could ever ask for. mom, dad, sister and rob. love you all. wouldn't be anywhere without you
2. snow. FIRST REAL SNOW OF THE YEAR!!!!!!!! so happy
3. music, both listening to it and playing it. so many ways to express my emotions just through song
4. great cousins/aunts/uncles, i guess this could be grouped with family but they're different
5. football! football! football! whether it's from Austin's little league team winning state to watching my Utes and Cowboys....it's the best sport in the world
6. friends, there's a couple in particular, jill, brennan, alison, mackenzie, alex and ashley....only alison reads this but you're all amazing and i'm thankful for all of you
7. the holiday season! i'm such in the spirit this year, for the first time in years, i've been too selfish as of late
8. my job, i may complain about it often but i really do love it
9. skiing, it has started and you won't be seeing much of me in the upcoming months!
10. institute...yep, i said it, most of you weren't aware but yes i've started going to institute and everything, gives me another perspective on life
with those being stated i'd like to just add one more thing
i've been happier in the past month or so than i have been in months
stopped drinking (yes, it's been hard), stopped swearing as much, started living a more clean/honest life
judge me all you want, i really could care less anymore
peace and love.
-aaron
it feels really good,
10 thankfuls
1. first and foremost will always be my family, the greatest thing i could ever ask for. mom, dad, sister and rob. love you all. wouldn't be anywhere without you
2. snow. FIRST REAL SNOW OF THE YEAR!!!!!!!! so happy
3. music, both listening to it and playing it. so many ways to express my emotions just through song
4. great cousins/aunts/uncles, i guess this could be grouped with family but they're different
5. football! football! football! whether it's from Austin's little league team winning state to watching my Utes and Cowboys....it's the best sport in the world
6. friends, there's a couple in particular, jill, brennan, alison, mackenzie, alex and ashley....only alison reads this but you're all amazing and i'm thankful for all of you
7. the holiday season! i'm such in the spirit this year, for the first time in years, i've been too selfish as of late
8. my job, i may complain about it often but i really do love it
9. skiing, it has started and you won't be seeing much of me in the upcoming months!
10. institute...yep, i said it, most of you weren't aware but yes i've started going to institute and everything, gives me another perspective on life
with those being stated i'd like to just add one more thing
i've been happier in the past month or so than i have been in months
stopped drinking (yes, it's been hard), stopped swearing as much, started living a more clean/honest life
judge me all you want, i really could care less anymore
peace and love.
-aaron
it feels really good,
Friday, November 6, 2009
what's cooler than being cool?
just one of those days i guess.
stuff started out good, woke up in a really good mood.
-studied for my two tests for the day
-passed one i'm pretty sure, unsure about the other
-went about my day, a little disappointed at one point
-school, work, the usual schedule
mixed it up a little bit, jazz game, poker, new friends
cleared my head
got home, not so much, a little lost
why does this have to be so hard?
can't stand to fight the feeling cuz the thought alone is killin me right now
i need november and december to go by quick
the new year always feels like a new beginning even though nothing changes
but separate is always better when there's feelings involved
i'm feeling really solid in a lot of new additions to my life though, finally feeling like there is a purpose to some things
if what they say is "nothing is forever", then what makes love the exception?
christmas shopping is all done for my family, feels good, i'm excited for them to all get their gifts
chin up, smile, it's a brand new day
you got this bro
you never know what might happen...walls come down every day
you never thought it would happen before but it did and just took some time
maybe the outcome will be different this time?
we can only hope
i feel lame talking in 3rd person
only way i can express my feelings through written form right now
ugh.
i need a drive this weekend, who wants to join me?
weird soundtrack for my night, Obadiah Parker - Hey Ya cover
fitting
bed time
peace and love.
-aaron
stuff started out good, woke up in a really good mood.
-studied for my two tests for the day
-passed one i'm pretty sure, unsure about the other
-went about my day, a little disappointed at one point
-school, work, the usual schedule
mixed it up a little bit, jazz game, poker, new friends
cleared my head
got home, not so much, a little lost
why does this have to be so hard?
can't stand to fight the feeling cuz the thought alone is killin me right now
i need november and december to go by quick
the new year always feels like a new beginning even though nothing changes
but separate is always better when there's feelings involved
i'm feeling really solid in a lot of new additions to my life though, finally feeling like there is a purpose to some things
if what they say is "nothing is forever", then what makes love the exception?
christmas shopping is all done for my family, feels good, i'm excited for them to all get their gifts
chin up, smile, it's a brand new day
you got this bro
you never know what might happen...walls come down every day
you never thought it would happen before but it did and just took some time
maybe the outcome will be different this time?
we can only hope
i feel lame talking in 3rd person
only way i can express my feelings through written form right now
ugh.
i need a drive this weekend, who wants to join me?
weird soundtrack for my night, Obadiah Parker - Hey Ya cover
fitting
bed time
peace and love.
-aaron
Thursday, November 5, 2009
February Stars
No real explanation, no lengthy blog post. This just sums up how I'm feeling.
I'm hanging on
Here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
Just hanging on
Even though
I watched you come and go
How was I to know
You'd steal the show
One day I'll have enough to gamble
Ill wait to hear your final call
And bet it all
I'm hanging on
Here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
Just hanging on
Even though
Passed this time alone
Somewhere so unknown
It heals the soul
You'll ask for walls I'll build them higher
We'll lie in shadows of them all
I'd stand but they're much too tall
And I fall
FEBRUARY STARS!
FLOATING IN THE DARK!
TEMPORARY SCARS!
FEBRUARY STARS!
peace and love.
-aaron
I'm hanging on
Here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
Just hanging on
Even though
I watched you come and go
How was I to know
You'd steal the show
One day I'll have enough to gamble
Ill wait to hear your final call
And bet it all
I'm hanging on
Here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
Just hanging on
Even though
Passed this time alone
Somewhere so unknown
It heals the soul
You'll ask for walls I'll build them higher
We'll lie in shadows of them all
I'd stand but they're much too tall
And I fall
FEBRUARY STARS!
FLOATING IN THE DARK!
TEMPORARY SCARS!
FEBRUARY STARS!
peace and love.
-aaron
Friday, October 30, 2009
so what? it's my life ain't it?
another very restless night where i couldn't sleep but this time i didn't stay up all night
i'd like to say i'm not confused but in all reality i am....i really really am
not really sure how to take it, too afraid to ask
new changes in my life, so far so good, can't complain
we can discover the wonders of nature rolling in the brushes down by the riverside
some days i think that i wish i was married....i'm being honest, i really am so sick of being single
-i want to have that thing married couples have
-love maybe?
-to know that you have someone in your life that you care about more than anyone else even above yourself and that they feel the exact same way
-there's no way i'm ready to be married but i'm willing to give it a go if i were to find the right one
i'm not very witty lately, i've been in a very serious mood, i'm not really sure what to make of it
my mind just went blank so i'm done for now...
perhaps more later
peace and love.
-aaron
i'd like to say i'm not confused but in all reality i am....i really really am
not really sure how to take it, too afraid to ask
new changes in my life, so far so good, can't complain
we can discover the wonders of nature rolling in the brushes down by the riverside
some days i think that i wish i was married....i'm being honest, i really am so sick of being single
-i want to have that thing married couples have
-love maybe?
-to know that you have someone in your life that you care about more than anyone else even above yourself and that they feel the exact same way
-there's no way i'm ready to be married but i'm willing to give it a go if i were to find the right one
i'm not very witty lately, i've been in a very serious mood, i'm not really sure what to make of it
my mind just went blank so i'm done for now...
perhaps more later
peace and love.
-aaron
Friday, October 16, 2009
i think about the years i spent just passing through
weird mood tonight.
didn't sleep at all. wasn't tired. way too much on my mind.
i really just don't know where i'm at.
i thought i had it figured out, but life just throws those curveballs at you, ya know?
i keep coming back to the same conclusion though.......
i think that i could be completely and utterly happy living in a cabin in the mountains with two dogs and working just an odd job at a ski resort or local resort restaurant.
i don't think i'm cut out for this whole "life" thing. i'm not going to be a contributing member of society, i have so many other things that are more important than to give back to the machine that is "society"
what do i need to do to make you see? i want you to so bad.
can't say i've felt like this in a long time. very odd.
i need a good drive. turn the music up, the windows down and just drive.
so many conflicting thoughts, ideas and views on everything. how can they all coincide?
5:01:19 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009
what am i doing?
my life has rocked up to this point, looking through so many things in my past.
i really don't think i would change it at all.
everything happens for a reason and karma is a bitch.
do good unto others and have good done unto yourself.
life is just so complicated in this day and age. i need to simplify.
love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart.
a slow mellow, steady river flowing through a quiet meadow. no rushing, no distractions. tributaries feeding the constant flow of the river like a an ever hungry beast. no outlet, just a constant mellow flow. easy and regular.
i need a waterfall, i need a rocky bottom, narrowing and steep. i need somewhere for this steady flow to go. there needs to be an outlet. i know what/who/where it is but am i just too scared?
yes.
we don't understand it, we probably never will.
it's so hard to tell what's going on.
are some things better on the other side?
i just found out there's no such thing as the real world.
5:18:33 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009
mental blocks are killing me.
-tributes to my friends
i miss you.
have fun.
wish i could tell you how i really feel.
you mean more than you will ever know.
you know me better than anyone else.
i love you like a brother.
you've been such a constant, thank you.
you make me smile.
you're the best influence i could ask for.
you just.......get me.
my head hurts.
i love you all.
peace and love.
-aaron
didn't sleep at all. wasn't tired. way too much on my mind.
i really just don't know where i'm at.
i thought i had it figured out, but life just throws those curveballs at you, ya know?
i keep coming back to the same conclusion though.......
i think that i could be completely and utterly happy living in a cabin in the mountains with two dogs and working just an odd job at a ski resort or local resort restaurant.
i don't think i'm cut out for this whole "life" thing. i'm not going to be a contributing member of society, i have so many other things that are more important than to give back to the machine that is "society"
what do i need to do to make you see? i want you to so bad.
can't say i've felt like this in a long time. very odd.
i need a good drive. turn the music up, the windows down and just drive.
so many conflicting thoughts, ideas and views on everything. how can they all coincide?
5:01:19 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009
what am i doing?
my life has rocked up to this point, looking through so many things in my past.
i really don't think i would change it at all.
everything happens for a reason and karma is a bitch.
do good unto others and have good done unto yourself.
life is just so complicated in this day and age. i need to simplify.
love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart.
a slow mellow, steady river flowing through a quiet meadow. no rushing, no distractions. tributaries feeding the constant flow of the river like a an ever hungry beast. no outlet, just a constant mellow flow. easy and regular.
i need a waterfall, i need a rocky bottom, narrowing and steep. i need somewhere for this steady flow to go. there needs to be an outlet. i know what/who/where it is but am i just too scared?
yes.
we don't understand it, we probably never will.
it's so hard to tell what's going on.
are some things better on the other side?
i just found out there's no such thing as the real world.
5:18:33 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009
mental blocks are killing me.
-tributes to my friends
i miss you.
have fun.
wish i could tell you how i really feel.
you mean more than you will ever know.
you know me better than anyone else.
i love you like a brother.
you've been such a constant, thank you.
you make me smile.
you're the best influence i could ask for.
you just.......get me.
my head hurts.
i love you all.
peace and love.
-aaron
Thursday, September 3, 2009
let's do this shit
school has started.
wait for it.......wait for it.........I ACTUALLY LIKE CLASS THIS SEMESTER.
-amazing I know
Biology
-awesome professor
Gender and Politics
-interesting people, interesting concept for a class
Enviromental Studies
-combing so many things that I love, plus some pretty cool people
Earth Environments
-Geographyish class that is online and pretty cool
what else is new in my life?
i'm done at Riverton City, whoooo, so sick of working construction related jobs
starting back at Backcountry on Sunday, stoked for a job that I actually LIKE
been in a big music mood lately, a lot of Grateful Dead, Franti and other chill/fun music
my roommate is weird, really weird, won't even talk to me
thinking of going veggie again, this time with some actual knowledge
i love my friends
"listen pal, I'm not your buddy"
kapssh! kapssh kapssh!
i love you all
peace and love.
-aaron
wait for it.......wait for it.........I ACTUALLY LIKE CLASS THIS SEMESTER.
-amazing I know
Biology
-awesome professor
Gender and Politics
-interesting people, interesting concept for a class
Enviromental Studies
-combing so many things that I love, plus some pretty cool people
Earth Environments
-Geographyish class that is online and pretty cool
what else is new in my life?
i'm done at Riverton City, whoooo, so sick of working construction related jobs
starting back at Backcountry on Sunday, stoked for a job that I actually LIKE
been in a big music mood lately, a lot of Grateful Dead, Franti and other chill/fun music
my roommate is weird, really weird, won't even talk to me
thinking of going veggie again, this time with some actual knowledge
i love my friends
"listen pal, I'm not your buddy"
kapssh! kapssh kapssh!
i love you all
peace and love.
-aaron
Saturday, July 11, 2009
i used to be cool
today i got in a weird mood and decided to look over all my old blogs, journals, xanga, etc.
i used to be "okay" at writing, now it's all the same, lame shit.
this is the bullet from a gun named "what the fuck"?
did i just grow up or have i lost all my creativity? who knows? i don't think it's the latter because i've started writing songs/bass riffs that are decent and go well. i'm also big into photography these days.
maybe i've just realized that i'll leave writing to my other friends like marcie, alison, alex, etc.
found a place to live, hooray! me and b-will, should be a good time. you'd better believe it! you'd all better come and visit/house warm. if not, i'll hate you.
i'm confused on a lot of things right now, oh well. that's how life goes i guess.
been in a big acoustic mood lately. one man, one guitar, gold. mason jennings, jack johnson, willy mason, etc. love
maybe i need to find a "significant other", i hate that term and everything that is associated with it. i feel like i'm becoming too selfish having been single/by myself for so long. i need someone to kick me into a sense of providing/caring for someone else that isn't a "friend or brennan" (yes they're two different categories)
i won't let this build up inside of me, the tension that i feel behind my eyes all day every day. not a pain, more of a catch in my throat. choke? torn into pieces. just a nagging insistence that something is wrong. what the hell is wrong with you? i feel the eyes and ears on me at all times, are they really there though? it isn't real. ....i can't maker them real
not really a torment but i do whatever i want to myself and i don't know what to do, it makes me sick. the unrequited dream
the song that no one sings, doesn't seem fair, now does it? nameless or just thoughtless? a combination of both? who the hell are you and why are you here?
we're not that different, me and you. just misunderstood....probably. butterfly.
it's the story that goes on and on. neverending, from the beginning of time till the nonexistant end. the end is near.
i try to be supportive but how can i? honestly, tell me. it just doesn't make any sense to me......at all. tell me something sweet to get me by. what's the point of it all? no one actually cares or accomplishes anything. just those motivated few that no one really likes deep down. pats on the back and cheers but what does it all mean?
what am i doing wrong? oh god, what the hell am i doing wrong? fuck it, it's not worth dwelling on. take it, leave it or shut up. you have no room to talk. blah blah blah
"she says wake up, it's no use pretending."
why so fake? really though, just trying to be different by being the same. individual? think again. just like the others, those others that i hate so much. jealous? not one bit. i feel bad mostly. so young, so lost, so similar. just be yourself, don't pretend. all a bunch of pretentious bastards anyway. jude me, hate me, mock me, it's like fuel, fuel for my bitter heart.
the confidence swells in me every day. more and more, accumulating in an infinite way. i dig it. keep it coming, bah bah bah bah bah.
bitter, lonely, scared, sad, dejected, lost, confused, emotionless, bastardly, anxious
...........but happy. yes, very happy indeed. i love my life. i love my family. i love my music. i love my friends. whether you be in south jordan, salt lake, riverton, murray, midvale, provo or out of state. i love you.....lots. i may not show it always but i miss those i don't see often and wish you were here at all times. you may read this or you may not but either way it doesn't matter.
venting done.
i love you all.
peace and love.
-aaron
i used to be "okay" at writing, now it's all the same, lame shit.
this is the bullet from a gun named "what the fuck"?
did i just grow up or have i lost all my creativity? who knows? i don't think it's the latter because i've started writing songs/bass riffs that are decent and go well. i'm also big into photography these days.
maybe i've just realized that i'll leave writing to my other friends like marcie, alison, alex, etc.
found a place to live, hooray! me and b-will, should be a good time. you'd better believe it! you'd all better come and visit/house warm. if not, i'll hate you.
i'm confused on a lot of things right now, oh well. that's how life goes i guess.
been in a big acoustic mood lately. one man, one guitar, gold. mason jennings, jack johnson, willy mason, etc. love
maybe i need to find a "significant other", i hate that term and everything that is associated with it. i feel like i'm becoming too selfish having been single/by myself for so long. i need someone to kick me into a sense of providing/caring for someone else that isn't a "friend or brennan" (yes they're two different categories)
i won't let this build up inside of me, the tension that i feel behind my eyes all day every day. not a pain, more of a catch in my throat. choke? torn into pieces. just a nagging insistence that something is wrong. what the hell is wrong with you? i feel the eyes and ears on me at all times, are they really there though? it isn't real. ....i can't maker them real
not really a torment but i do whatever i want to myself and i don't know what to do, it makes me sick. the unrequited dream
the song that no one sings, doesn't seem fair, now does it? nameless or just thoughtless? a combination of both? who the hell are you and why are you here?
we're not that different, me and you. just misunderstood....probably. butterfly.
it's the story that goes on and on. neverending, from the beginning of time till the nonexistant end. the end is near.
i try to be supportive but how can i? honestly, tell me. it just doesn't make any sense to me......at all. tell me something sweet to get me by. what's the point of it all? no one actually cares or accomplishes anything. just those motivated few that no one really likes deep down. pats on the back and cheers but what does it all mean?
what am i doing wrong? oh god, what the hell am i doing wrong? fuck it, it's not worth dwelling on. take it, leave it or shut up. you have no room to talk. blah blah blah
"she says wake up, it's no use pretending."
why so fake? really though, just trying to be different by being the same. individual? think again. just like the others, those others that i hate so much. jealous? not one bit. i feel bad mostly. so young, so lost, so similar. just be yourself, don't pretend. all a bunch of pretentious bastards anyway. jude me, hate me, mock me, it's like fuel, fuel for my bitter heart.
the confidence swells in me every day. more and more, accumulating in an infinite way. i dig it. keep it coming, bah bah bah bah bah.
bitter, lonely, scared, sad, dejected, lost, confused, emotionless, bastardly, anxious
...........but happy. yes, very happy indeed. i love my life. i love my family. i love my music. i love my friends. whether you be in south jordan, salt lake, riverton, murray, midvale, provo or out of state. i love you.....lots. i may not show it always but i miss those i don't see often and wish you were here at all times. you may read this or you may not but either way it doesn't matter.
venting done.
i love you all.
peace and love.
-aaron
Sunday, July 5, 2009
haven't been this happy in minutes
hmmmmmmmm.........not really sure what i'm doing but i'm doing it
4th of july? one of the best holidays EVER
fireworks, family, golfing, giant slip n' slides, freedom, LOVE IT
i love my brother in law, for sure, one of the coolest guys i know
so happy that Big B-ren, B-Will, B-Real, Williams, Brennanan, etc. is home
-may Brenaaron be together once again
-we're taking it to the next level, as an official announcement we are moving in together, apartment theme = UTAH
i'm in love with Mason Jennings, went on another spending spree on iTunes
-i have a problem
i've been in a really good mood lately though
new friends, new adventures are fun
old friends and the usual thing is even better
my cousin is going to Argentina on his mission, I'm so stoked for him
my wish currently? to have enough money to buy a house of my own and two dogs to go along with it, i'm thinking Sugarhouse/Holladay area
i really want to start a restaurant as well, the name of it will be Cardiac's....it's a solid idea, i'm a big fan
getting a tattoo, i'm so happy/excited about it
-called about an appointment today
"if you need a reason as to why you're here, you don't need to look farther than me"
you know that feeling you get that feels good but you don't want it to?
-ah hell who am i kidding
i think way too much about it to be completely honest
just go with the flow
Summer of Love 2009, not so great so far, i need to start working on it
i'm out of thoughts,
i love you all
goodnight
peace and love.
-aaron
4th of july? one of the best holidays EVER
fireworks, family, golfing, giant slip n' slides, freedom, LOVE IT
i love my brother in law, for sure, one of the coolest guys i know
so happy that Big B-ren, B-Will, B-Real, Williams, Brennanan, etc. is home
-may Brenaaron be together once again
-we're taking it to the next level, as an official announcement we are moving in together, apartment theme = UTAH
i'm in love with Mason Jennings, went on another spending spree on iTunes
-i have a problem
i've been in a really good mood lately though
new friends, new adventures are fun
old friends and the usual thing is even better
my cousin is going to Argentina on his mission, I'm so stoked for him
my wish currently? to have enough money to buy a house of my own and two dogs to go along with it, i'm thinking Sugarhouse/Holladay area
i really want to start a restaurant as well, the name of it will be Cardiac's....it's a solid idea, i'm a big fan
getting a tattoo, i'm so happy/excited about it
-called about an appointment today
"if you need a reason as to why you're here, you don't need to look farther than me"
you know that feeling you get that feels good but you don't want it to?
-ah hell who am i kidding
i think way too much about it to be completely honest
just go with the flow
Summer of Love 2009, not so great so far, i need to start working on it
i'm out of thoughts,
i love you all
goodnight
peace and love.
-aaron
Saturday, May 16, 2009
leave a message and i'll call you back
what it is!
i'm really really happy
school is over
found a job where i work outside
sister is getting married in a week
"my missionary" gets back in like 10 days....the dynamic duo will be reunited
motorcycle weather
mountain biking
awesome weather
"sweet like candy to my soul"
it's a new day, no matter how you look at it
why be sad/mad when you have life?
breathing, living, love
new brother, stoked
my garden is planted....so many vegetables
i love my family
happy to be so close with my aunt/uncle/cousins, love the Allens
i have full respect for people who give 2 years of their life to a cause
-i know you guys will do great (my cousin jordan and rachel)
-you have all my support, both of you
i wish all of my friends well, even if we don't talk as much or keep in touch, i still think of you
"we were just wasting time.........doing nothing for the fun"
going to see Dave Matthews at the Gorge in August?????? I hope so
haven't wrote a blog in a loooooooooooong time
it feels good
i want to have a dance party
been watching A LOT of Sportscenter lately
been outside a lot as well which makes me extremely happy
want to go hiking and need a buddy
Environmental Studies, new Major? looks like it
-teaching certificate as well
i'm rad, you're rad, let's hug
i love you all
enjoy your days
peace and love.
-aaron
i'm really really happy
school is over
found a job where i work outside
sister is getting married in a week
"my missionary" gets back in like 10 days....the dynamic duo will be reunited
motorcycle weather
mountain biking
awesome weather
"sweet like candy to my soul"
it's a new day, no matter how you look at it
why be sad/mad when you have life?
breathing, living, love
new brother, stoked
my garden is planted....so many vegetables
i love my family
happy to be so close with my aunt/uncle/cousins, love the Allens
i have full respect for people who give 2 years of their life to a cause
-i know you guys will do great (my cousin jordan and rachel)
-you have all my support, both of you
i wish all of my friends well, even if we don't talk as much or keep in touch, i still think of you
"we were just wasting time.........doing nothing for the fun"
going to see Dave Matthews at the Gorge in August?????? I hope so
haven't wrote a blog in a loooooooooooong time
it feels good
i want to have a dance party
been watching A LOT of Sportscenter lately
been outside a lot as well which makes me extremely happy
want to go hiking and need a buddy
Environmental Studies, new Major? looks like it
-teaching certificate as well
i'm rad, you're rad, let's hug
i love you all
enjoy your days
peace and love.
-aaron
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
The revolution never comes with a warning!
It's that time, you all knew it was coming...
Obama-Rama has begun!
I couldn't be happier.
It's going to be a great 4 years.
Even if you didn't vote for Obama the least you could do is support our President for the next 4 years since we're all stuck with him for at least 4 years.
All that matters if that you voted.
If you didn't vote, well then you have no room to complain at all about how this government is being run.
I bet everyone is going to be surprised at what comes out of this presidency, there are some new and great ideas that are going to go down and we should all look forward to it.
All I have to say is "Yes we can." no no no, "YES WE DID!"
peace and love.
-aaron
Obama-Rama has begun!
I couldn't be happier.
It's going to be a great 4 years.
Even if you didn't vote for Obama the least you could do is support our President for the next 4 years since we're all stuck with him for at least 4 years.
All that matters if that you voted.
If you didn't vote, well then you have no room to complain at all about how this government is being run.
I bet everyone is going to be surprised at what comes out of this presidency, there are some new and great ideas that are going to go down and we should all look forward to it.
All I have to say is "Yes we can." no no no, "YES WE DID!"
peace and love.
-aaron
Friday, January 9, 2009
Even Jesus would never forgive what you do
just a warning, if you're sensitive to harsh language, just stop here, this is going to be a very explicit blog.
i warned you.
let me just start out with what sparked this little blog.
i mean really????
you've got to be fucking kidding me. what is wrong with people? i saw this exact bumper sticker on someone's big fucking lifted truck today and all I did was flip them off....ridiculous
the f-15 is a HOMICIDE bomba
since when is peace settle with weapons? just because the US thinks it's okay. it's bullshit. that's all it is. i understand the middle east has been fighting over religion since life began but this is different entirely.
it doesn't matter who you are, we're all one people!
this guy is probably the same guy that went and bought a semi-automatic because we have a black democrat as a president. EVERYONE WATCH OUT HE'S GONNA DONE TAKE OUR GUNS
how ignorant can people be? fuck man, peace should have nothing to do with weapons.
there's too many people these days that have this mentality as well. it's absolutely ridiculous. "you don't have my view? oh well, i'll just shoot you and the rest of your country until you're so defenseless that you will just lay down in front of me, then i'll kill you anways"
i'm pissed, i'm done with people, if it's anyone that deserves to have gun control acted upon them, it's you, you mother fucker
i'm done.
here should be our true peace sign.
broken rifle symbol
legalize it! peace symbol
the rastas know what it's all about
peace and love.
-aaron
ps: Bob Dylan put it best.
Read it and believe it.
i warned you.
let me just start out with what sparked this little blog.
i mean really????
you've got to be fucking kidding me. what is wrong with people? i saw this exact bumper sticker on someone's big fucking lifted truck today and all I did was flip them off....ridiculous
the f-15 is a HOMICIDE bomba
since when is peace settle with weapons? just because the US thinks it's okay. it's bullshit. that's all it is. i understand the middle east has been fighting over religion since life began but this is different entirely.
it doesn't matter who you are, we're all one people!
this guy is probably the same guy that went and bought a semi-automatic because we have a black democrat as a president. EVERYONE WATCH OUT HE'S GONNA DONE TAKE OUR GUNS
how ignorant can people be? fuck man, peace should have nothing to do with weapons.
there's too many people these days that have this mentality as well. it's absolutely ridiculous. "you don't have my view? oh well, i'll just shoot you and the rest of your country until you're so defenseless that you will just lay down in front of me, then i'll kill you anways"
i'm pissed, i'm done with people, if it's anyone that deserves to have gun control acted upon them, it's you, you mother fucker
i'm done.
here should be our true peace sign.
broken rifle symbol
legalize it! peace symbol
the rastas know what it's all about
peace and love.
-aaron
ps: Bob Dylan put it best.
Read it and believe it.
Come you masters of war
You that build all the guns
You that build the death planes
You that build the big bombs
You that hide behind walls
You that hide behind desks
I just want you to know
I can see through your masks
You that never done nothin'
But build to destroy
You play with my world
Like it's your little toy
You put a gun in my hand
And you hide from my eyes
And you turn and run farther
When the fast bullets fly
Like Judas of old
You lie and deceive
A world war can be won
You want me to believe
But I see through your eyes
And I see through your brain
Like I see through the water
That runs down my drain
You fasten the triggers
For the others to fire
Then you set back and watch
When the death count gets higher
You hide in your mansion
As young people's blood
Flows out of their bodies
And is buried in the mud
You've thrown the worst fear
That can ever be hurled
Fear to bring children
Into the world
For threatening my baby
Unborn and unnamed
You ain't worth the blood
That runs in your veins
How much do I know
To talk out of turn
You might say that I'm young
You might say I'm unlearned
But there's one thing I know
Though I'm younger than you
Even Jesus would never
Forgive what you do
Let me ask you one question
Is your money that good
Will it buy you forgiveness
Do you think that it could
I think you will find
When your death takes its toll
All the money you made
Will never buy back your soul
And I hope that you die
And your death'll come soon
I will follow your casket
In the pale afternoon
And I'll watch while you're lowered
Down to your deathbed
And I'll stand o'er your grave
'Til I'm sure that you're dead
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