was that a wolf?

can i please just say how much i love camping?

i fucking love it. life is so simple when you're camping. i mean seriously, it's just you and nature. i especially like it now since i have a single tent so i feel like it's just me while i'm sleeping.

i went to yellowstone with angie and rob. those two are so in love it's not even funny. i just hope someday i can find what they have together. they just look so happy all the time.

angie is crazy sometimes, oh well.

saw a shit-ton of bison and elk but no bears.

i think the coolest thing were the wolves we heard last night howling and barking while they were chasing an elk (this is just speculation but we're pretty sure after talking to a ranger).

i'm a pyro. i love fire. i love starting fires.

i got attacked by a crazy piece of wood.

sometimes i feel like i'm in a fraternity because i have a motorcycle. our neighbors in the campground were on motorcycles and we turned into best friends.

someone destroyed the Obama sign in our yard. not to mention the fact that i got yelled at during a stop light because i support Obama.

"go spew your liberal propaganda elsewhere you hippie!" said the 30-something year old guy in downtown south jordan.

i politley said back to him "i wasn't spewing anything, i tastefully have an obama sticker on my truck that just says "hope" on it."

then he muttered something about socialism and kids these days don't know anything and i just smiled at him and threw a piece sign.

seriously, who does that?

it's a little upsetting actually. why can't everyone be like the nice ranger lady in yellowstone who was a McCain supporter but said to me "i'm genuinely happy to see the younger generation getting involved in politics even if we don't agree."

i kind of want to be a park ranger now after seeing them work for a couple days.

i applied at backcountry.com, i have an interview on tuesday and wednesday. i'm excited but extremely nervous at the same time.

more to come later this week, i'm sure.

peace and love.

-aaron

frustration?

2 torn ligaments.

awesome. at least they don't require surgery at this point in time. basically he told me though that i'll need surgery sometime within the next 5 years.

it hurts like hell, i'm not gonna lie.

why do things have to be so fucking complicated? that's really all i have to say.

where's the metaphorical "easy" button? i've heard so much about it. i don't have things to turn to that make things easier for me. instead i usually just put up with shit until it gets better or goes away.

i'm a sucker. no, really i am. i pour my heart out too easily and it just ends up biting me in the end. i trust too easily and that's not a good thing. i used to be one that would trust a lot of people with things but i really don't think i can do that anymore.

who honestly knows what's going to happen, right? i mean everyone thinks they have an idea, but no one can actually control it. kharma is a bitch.

money isn't everything. all it does is buy things. the things i need in life can all be obtained without money. i kind of wish it was never invented and everyone just bartered still.

my mind has been racing lately, as i'm sure you can see. i just have a lot of things to figure out. that's why i started writing in my blog again. it helps me to know that i can let all my thoughts and emotions out. it's almost even more helpful knowing people i care about can read deep into my head.

i've been pretty distant lately.

it's just hard to say how i feel today when years have gone by.

peace and love.

-aaron

i followed suit and laid out on my back....imagine that

blah.

no really, blah.

that's really about the extent of my emotions these days.

i feel like i'm just rolling through life, not even running or just walking but rolling. every little bump that comes along it forces me in a different direction. one long/endless roll that makes me dizzy. as my head is spinning i feel that i need to make the big decisions in my life.

i know i'm only 20, but i feel like now is the time i need to stand up and start walking. quit rolling and take lead in my life. instead of bumps and obstacles pushing me in the other direction i'll walk over them.

i'm going back to school. it only took me a year to figure out that is the next move in my life. i wish i would have taken that year right out of high school instead of wasting 1 1/2 years of money and time.

marketing.

wanted to do it since high school, it's the only thing that has been a constant in the back of my head. sure i won't make a difference in anyones life or make a lot of money, but i feel like i'll enjoy it.

that's what i need right now is to enjoy the things i do. i've been so depressed since high school more or less. i don't know if it's more or less depressed as it is repressed. i don't know. i feel like i've grown up but at the same time i haven't.

i try to pretend that it's easy for me to meet new people. but it's not. i'm comfortable with the people i have in my life right now, but i know i need to get out and meet people. i also need to patch some old friendships and relationships that i dearly miss.

i need to find a new job. i'm finally over the whole engineering/cadd thing. i hated it and couldn't be happier with my decision.

i feel like i'm home now, like i'm coming around from a trip. not an actual trip, but more of a metaphorical trip. it was nice, but it's even better to be home.

my sister is "officially" engaged. whoo hoo. cheer. blah blah blah.
-i guess it's not as exciting since she's been living with the guy for a year now.
-i like Rob a lot, he's a good guy. like the brother i never had.

i have potentially torn ligaments in my ankle, i found out for sure this week. hopefully i don't need surgery.

i'm looking forward to winter, i don't want, i NEED to start skiing again. hopefully i can with this whole ankle thing.

i hope the best for everyone. give me a hint if you read this, i just want to know who my audience is.

peace and love.

-aaron