Boss D.J.

There's a steel train comin' through I would take it if I could
And I would not lie to you because sunday mornin' soon will come

When things will be much easier to say
Upon the microphone like a boss dj
But I won't walk up upon the sea like it was dry land
Boss dj ain't nothin' but a man
No trouble, no fuss, I know why..

It's so nice, I wanna hear the same song twice,
It's so nice don't wanna hear the same song twice

Rumors are spreading all over my town
But it's just stones and sticks,
Upon the microphone is where I go to get my fix

Just let the lovin' take a hold 'cause it will if you let it
I'm funky not a junkie but I know where to get it
No trouble no fuss I know why

It's so nice I wanna hear the same song twice
It's so nice I wanna hear the same song twice

Oooee girl
Oooee girl
Oooee girl

Ooee girl and there really ain't no time to waste
Really ain't no time to hate
Ain't got no time to waste, time to hate
Really ain't no time to make the time go away

So mister dj don't stop the music,
I wanna know,
Are you feelin' the same way too?

I wanna rock it wih you-ou girl,
You-ou girl, you-ou girl, oooooo
Mmmmmhmmmhhmmm
Don't stop

''cause it's so nice I wanna hear the same song twice,
It's so nice I wanna hear the same song twice

Nowadays all the songs on the radio,
They all,
All drive me crazy

Dosed

"I got dosed by you and
Closer than most to you and
What am I supposed to do
Take it away I never had it anyway
Take it away and everything will be okay
In you a star is born and
You cut a perfect form and
Someone forever warm
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Way upon the mountain where she died
All I ever wanted was your life
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide
All I ever wanted was your life
Show love with no remorse and
Climb on to your seahorse and
This ride is right on corse
This is the way I wanted it to be with you
This is the way that I knew that it would be with you
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Lay on lay on lay on lay on
Way upon the mountain where she died
All I ever wanted was your life
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide
All I ever wanted was your life
I got dosed by you and
Closer than most to you and
What am I supposed to do
Take it away I never had it anyway
Take it away and everything will be okay
Way upon the mountain where she died
All I ever wanted was your life
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide
All I ever wanted was your life"

-Red Hot Chili Peppers



don't feel like explaining
peace and love.

-aaron

Inches

This may be about football but it has a lot of things about life as well. This has been a big part of my life, just this speech.

I don't know what to say really.
Three minutes
to the biggest battle of our professional lives
all comes down to today.
Either
we heal
as a team
or we are going to crumble.
Inch by inch
play by play
till we're finished.
We are in hell right now, gentlemen
believe me
and
we can stay here
and get the shit kicked out of us
or
we can fight our way
back into the light.
We can climb out of hell.
One inch, at a time.

Now I can't do it for you.
I'm too old.
I look around and I see these young faces
and I think
I mean
I made every wrong choice a middle age man could make.
I uh....
I pissed away all my money
believe it or not.
I chased off
anyone who has ever loved me.
And lately,
I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror.

You know when you get old in life
things get taken from you.
That's, that's part of life.
But,
you only learn that when you start losing stuff.
You find out that life is just a game of inches.
So is football.
Because in either game
life or football
the margin for error is so small.
I mean
one half step too late or to early
you don't quite make it.
One half second too slow or too fast
and you don't quite catch it.
The inches we need are everywhere around us.
They are in ever break of the game
every minute, every second.

On this team, we fight for that inch
On this team, we tear ourselves, and everyone around us
to pieces for that inch.
We CLAW with our finger nails for that inch.
Cause we know
when we add up all those inches
that's going to make the fucking difference
between WINNING and LOSING
between LIVING and DYING.

I'll tell you this
in any fight
it is the guy who is willing to die
who is going to win that inch.
And I know
if I am going to have any life anymore
it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch
because that is what LIVING is.
The six inches in front of your face.

Now I can't make you do it.
You gotta look at the guy next to you.
Look into his eyes.
Now I think you are going to see a guy who will go that inch with you.
You are going to see a guy
who will sacrifice himself for this team
because he knows when it comes down to it,
you are gonna do the same thing for him.

That's a team, gentlemen
and either we heal now, as a team,
or we will die as individuals.
That's football guys.
That's all it is.
Now, whattaya gonna do?

Uncle John's Band

"Well the first days are the hardest days, don't you worry any more,
'Cause when life looks like Easy Street, there is danger at your door.
Think this through with me, let me know your mind,
Wo, oh, what I want to know, is are you kind?

It's a buck dancer's choice my friend; better take my advice.
You know all the rules by now and the fire from the ice.
Will you come with me? Won't you come with me?
Wo, oh, what I want to know, will you come with me?

Goddamn, well I declare, have you seen the like?
Their wall are built of cannonballs, their motto is "Don't tread on me".
Come hear Uncle John'n Band playing to the tide,
Come with me, or go alone, he's come to take his children home.

It's the same story the crow told me; it's the only one he knows.
Like the morning sun you come and like the wind you go.
Ain't no time to hate, barely time to wait,
Wo, oh, what I want to know, where does the time go?

I live in a silver mine and I call it Beggar's Tomb;
I got me a violin and I beg you call the tune,
anybody's choice, I can hear your voice.
Wo, oh, what I want to know, how does the song go?

Come hear Uncle John's Band by the riverside,
Got some things to talk about, here beside the rising tide.

Come hear Uncle John's Band playing to the tide,
Come on along, or go alone, he's come to take his children home.
Wo, oh, what I want to know, how does the song go.

-Grateful Dead"

peace and love.

-aaron

Sunday 11/29 Playlist

My playlist for the last little bit...just felt like I needed to share:

Oh What a World - Rufus Wainwright

My Funny Valentine - Frank Sinatra

Karma Police - Radiohead

Better Together - Jack Johnson

Hey Ya (Cover) - Obadiah Parker

Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band

Weird but good mood tonight, too much to think about. Too much to talk about.

I'm scared, even moreso now.

Short tonight, maybe more later this week.

Peace and Love.

-Aaron

happiness is a warm gun

this one's for you sister!

10 thankfuls

1. first and foremost will always be my family, the greatest thing i could ever ask for. mom, dad, sister and rob. love you all. wouldn't be anywhere without you

2. snow. FIRST REAL SNOW OF THE YEAR!!!!!!!! so happy

3. music, both listening to it and playing it. so many ways to express my emotions just through song

4. great cousins/aunts/uncles, i guess this could be grouped with family but they're different

5. football! football! football! whether it's from Austin's little league team winning state to watching my Utes and Cowboys....it's the best sport in the world

6. friends, there's a couple in particular, jill, brennan, alison, mackenzie, alex and ashley....only alison reads this but you're all amazing and i'm thankful for all of you

7. the holiday season! i'm such in the spirit this year, for the first time in years, i've been too selfish as of late

8. my job, i may complain about it often but i really do love it

9. skiing, it has started and you won't be seeing much of me in the upcoming months!

10. institute...yep, i said it, most of you weren't aware but yes i've started going to institute and everything, gives me another perspective on life

with those being stated i'd like to just add one more thing

i've been happier in the past month or so than i have been in months

stopped drinking (yes, it's been hard), stopped swearing as much, started living a more clean/honest life

judge me all you want, i really could care less anymore

peace and love.

-aaron

it feels really good,

what's cooler than being cool?

just one of those days i guess.

stuff started out good, woke up in a really good mood.
-studied for my two tests for the day
-passed one i'm pretty sure, unsure about the other
-went about my day, a little disappointed at one point
-school, work, the usual schedule

mixed it up a little bit, jazz game, poker, new friends

cleared my head

got home, not so much, a little lost

why does this have to be so hard?

can't stand to fight the feeling cuz the thought alone is killin me right now

i need november and december to go by quick

the new year always feels like a new beginning even though nothing changes

but separate is always better when there's feelings involved

i'm feeling really solid in a lot of new additions to my life though, finally feeling like there is a purpose to some things

if what they say is "nothing is forever", then what makes love the exception?

christmas shopping is all done for my family, feels good, i'm excited for them to all get their gifts

chin up, smile, it's a brand new day

you got this bro

you never know what might happen...walls come down every day

you never thought it would happen before but it did and just took some time

maybe the outcome will be different this time?

we can only hope

i feel lame talking in 3rd person

only way i can express my feelings through written form right now

ugh.

i need a drive this weekend, who wants to join me?

weird soundtrack for my night, Obadiah Parker - Hey Ya cover

fitting

bed time

peace and love.

-aaron