and for a minute there, i lost myself

to be honest, i have no idea what i'm blogging about. i just kind of felt like sitting down and typing then seeing what comes of it.

do you ever wish you could be someone else just to see what goes through their head and why? i've been thinking about this a lot lately and i really don't think i would enjoy it. sure it would be fun for a while, but it would start to feel invasive even if you were "meant" to be there.

i've been really big into radiohead lately, i'm not sure what it is, but it's awesome. i really dig radiohead and the way their music makes me feel.

so it's kind of cool having an older brother figure like rob in my life. i feel like he's the big brother that i never had and i'm excited for him and angie to move back to salt lake so we can start doing stuff together.

with saying that, i'm also excited for them to have kids. i love little kids, it's kind of weird almost. i don't want to get married or anything but i want to have kids way bad. i just love the innocence of them and how much fun they can be. that's what i love about hanging with my little cousin austin, i'm such an influence on his life and i love it!

i really want to teach a little kid to ski or snowboard.

work is sort of kind of stressful right now with the number of people that are on the website at one time asking the stupidest questions known to man. people that don't even participate in outdoor activities could answer these questions most of the time.

working in customer service has made me realize, some people are just not happy....EVER. it's kind of sad actually. you try and cheer people up and they still are complete jerks. it makes me want to ask them "what's so bad in your life?" "you're buying a $500 pair of skis and you act like it's the worst thing in the world." it's crazy. some people just need to live a little sometimes and be happy.

i'm completely and utterly in love with the food network. i watch in entirely too much for a 20 year old guy. i love the channel though, so many awesome things on there.

i really need it to snow. clearly we're being punished for something, i'm sorry mother nature, i take all the blame on my shoulders. i apologize for whatever this state did to you. it was probably that guy i saw throw a bag of mcdonald's out his window today.

sometimes i actually think there was a Karma Police, it would be so cool to have someone enforcing Karma. although i do feel like it's a real thing because you always get what's coming to you in the end. i've been on the receiving end of some bad karma in my day, it's chill though.

you ever had that feeling like you're being a hypocrit but you know that you're doing the right thing in doing so?

sometimes i feel like my words fall upon deaf ears. either my words aren't worth hearing or i need to find a new audience. it's probably my fault for having "deaf ears" for so long. i don't belong here.

but in so many ways i do, my family is here. my true passions in life are here. i thought people in Utah were so lame for so long but some of the best people i know are part of those people i used to consider lame. where would i be without their influences in my life? you're right, probably dead or in jail.

i've never been one to rely on other people, but i've come to realize, other people keep me sane. interaction with people i enjoy keeps me sane. there's nothing i would give up for the chance to talk with some people any day of the week.

christmas is just around the corner and i seriously am way excited about it this year. this is the first time in a long time i've felt in the Christmas spirit. it's more than just a time of year, it's a frame of mind.

i love people that are in tune with themselves. they know who they are and enjoy it. the cool thing is with each person when they come to embrace what and who they are it's what draws me in. i guess i'm attracted to confidence since i lacked it for so long.

i lost my train of though, stupid espn. so that means i'm done for the night. expect more in the coming weeks, i'm in a very thoughtful mood.

i love you all.

peace and love.

-aaron

no, i don't feel like i'm falling down....i'm headed somewhere

it's what it is. a thanksgiving time blog. blah blah blah.
i'm thankful for my family and all that they do for me. i'm thankful to have rob as the newest member of our family, he makes angie so happy and that in turn makes me happy. my mom and dad are two of the greatest people on earth. i couldn't ask for anyone better.

i'm thankful for my friends. thanks for putting up with me, there's not many that i talk to these days, but you're all great.

it's amazing how some of the little things in life make you happy and remember the good times and make you wonder why you pushed away. sa'll good, some things just happen.

i had a conversation tonight over tea and hot chocolate (with rachel) and we talekd about the whole marriage thing and it got me thinking...what is it with people our age getting married? no college, no careers, no care in the world except each other...it just boggles my mind, i mean i can honestly say i've never felt "true love" but i just don't see why getting married rigth away is better and easier than getting through college and into a job. i guess i'm of the minority in this great state of utah.

bah bah bah bah baaaaaah

i've got a skip in my step and a song in my heart these days. i haven't been this happy in years. i love it. life is good. life will always be good, just gotta look at the positive side. also you gotta treat people right and you'll receive the same, karma is a bitch and i've come to see that.

i've come to appreciate the finer things in life, good music, good food, good friends and most importantly family. i'm so grateful to be raised where i have with the people in my life. it's great.

skiing almost every day, going to a job that i love, holiday season, going to california next week, actually excited to go back to school....seriously, freaking stoked on my life right now.

i hope everyone is in the same boat. when you feel like you're falling down, just remember those good times and surround yourself with the comforts of your life. it sounds easier said than done, but i'm a true believer in that these days.

i've tried a lot of things in the past year and done a lot of things i shouldn't have, but where i'm sitting right now is where i want to be. got a couple more things i need to do but those will be another process over the next couple of months.

my vegetarianism is going great, i'm totally full on in it. the only meat i've eaten in the past little while is some seafood for thanksgiving which i promised my mom i would eat a little bit of "real meat".

this christmas is going to be awesome, this is the first year i've actually been into it and the whole giving mood. i'm excited to see my family's eyes on christmas morning when they open their stuff. sooooo stoked.

well now i'm just rambling, just wanted to throw out some positive vibes to all of you since i'm in such a good mood.

peace and love.

-aaron

what it do?

New updates in my life...skiing has started, i spend the majority of my time doing this.

I have a new love in my life, her name is Line Chronic 181 with a 90mm Marker Jester. She's beautiful (for those that don't know, those are my new skis)

I'm going back to school in the spring. Yay Marketing/Business Administration major!

Did I mention I love my job??? Yes? Well I thought I would reiterate the point.

Backcountry.com check it out for all your outdoor needs....#1 retailer on the web woot!

so i voted...i baracked it fo sho, you know how i do

i won't go into any political spills, but yeah, just a run down, happy about president, pissed about prop 8, pissed about buttars and chaffetz. that's the end of that.

b-to-the-ren comes home in like 6 months....can you say STOKED?? seriously though

i'm going to disneyland the week after thanksgiving, it's going to be awesome. me, rob, angie, mom and dad the happy roberts/haddock family.

rob and angie are now getting married in may which means i'm that much closer to spoling little nieces and nephews.

i had an epiphany the other day, i really want to have a kid, not illegitimate but like a real kid, i love the little tykes and want to teach one how to ski.

by the way, i'm holding open lessons this winter for anyone who wants to learn how to snowboard. if you're interested, let me know. i only charge your company on the slopes, but seriously who wouldn't want to hang out with me.

dating is stupid, i'm done with dates until i find a girl that i really like. seriously. it's just a waste of money for me when they're boring as shit or whatever else. that being said, i'm more than happy to take people that i know out to eat for some good conversation and laughs. if interested hit me up.

i've become so desensitized to thing it's not even funny i've decided. i can talk about the most obscene things and not even be phased by it anymore. it's kind of sad in a sense that's what our generation has come to. but in a way, i like it. it's make everyone a little bit more open with each other. being more open with each other is just another step towards equality in my book.

i'm going to bed because i'm going skiing in the morning so let me just say that i hope everyone has a great day/night, i wish good things to you and love you all.

peace and love.

-aaron

i'm gonna get in trouble, i wanna start a fight

so planning a wedding is super weird i've decided. even though i'm not planning it persay, it's just weird to think that in a year my sister and rob will be married and stuff. it's gonna be an epic wedding though, i'm stoked for sure.

so i'm reverting back to my vegetarian ways of earlier this year...i was kind of sad when i had to start eating meat again because my doctor said, but i talked to him again and he gave me ways to do it "right" this time.

so i'm entirely a sucker when it comes to everything. someone asks me to do something and i just do it without hesitation. i don't know if it's a bad thing (it is at times) but i really don't know what else to do really. i've tried the whole asshole thing before and it just wasn't me, so wo knows.

i invented a breakfast concoction and it's delicious. berries, banana, carrot juice and some yogurt. i threw in some wheatgrass today and it's great, i love it.

so i had my first day of "work" yesterday that wasn't training. it was fun, the nice thing about it is people are very rarely upset when they talk to me. they're usually just wondering about an order they placed or have questions about outdoors gear. looooooooove it whoo!

i'm such a home body these days. i feel like i'm just drifting away from people. i don't really talk to anyone anymore other than the occasional hello or what's up. everyone just found "new friends" which is awesome.

so i had a really awkward conversation with my extended family on saturday at Austin's football game. they seriously asked me "so if you're not going on a mission, why aren't you dating anyone? have you thought about getting married? are you going to be like your sister and wait until you're 24?"

--i really just didn't know how to answer that...the last question was extremely hurtful, like me and my sister are freaks because we didn't/aren't getting married at like 20-21. i realize it's abnormal in Utah but seriously? maybe I don't want to just date anyone, i'd rather find someone who i really like and shit. oh well, we've always been the outcasts of the family. at least they're actually talking to us now and not calling me the spawn of satan (my dad).

speaking of Austin, i'm taking him under my wing. his older brother (jordan) is such a douche it's not even funny. he doesn't do anything with him, so i find myself taking austin to dinner and mini golfing and stuff. i just feel like he needs an older brother type to lead him in the right direction in this crazy day and age. he's a stud on the football field though, he's gonna be a hell of an athlete when he's older.

just some quick one liners to end this random ass blog:

park city is such a cool place
im' obsessed with the new pink song
i love weight lifting
sexdrive is a damn funny movie
i have a crush on kate nash
i need some new music, anyone who has ideas let me know

that's it, i'm through!

peace and love.

-aaron

so this one time i blogged

i'm bored, so i guess i'll write a blog.

i've officially quit WoW. i know, i know, i'm a nerd.

i absolutely freaking love my new job. it's amazing.

it's so great to go to work and be able to talk about the things i love. skiing, snowboarding, hiking, camping, etc. not only do i get to talk to customers about it, but also my coworkers.

i'm getting less excited to work at home because i want to be in that environment, but it will be awesome nonetheless, plus i can move around in the company if i wish. the biggest thing is i get a killer discount, like 40-60% off basically, it's epic.

i went to brighton this week and oh my god i'm so excited. skiing is soooooooooooo close. i can't wait to get on the slopes again. my love and passion is so near.

i have officially been alcohol free for 3 weeks now. it feels kind of good not relying on it for fun. may not be a big accomplishment, but i thought it was neat.

blogspot rocks because it saves your blogs as you're writing them. (i just closed the window on accident and it saved.)

what else? it doesn't seem like christmas is right around the corner, it's crazy man. crazy shit indeed. dani party? i'm stoked.

that's it for tonight, i'm boring blah blah.

peace and love.

-aaron

this is a story all about how...

i watched the debate. that's all i'm going to say since everyone knows my stance on politics. i thoroughly enjoyed it at points and wanted to break an old man's shoulders (again) at other times.

so i've been taking these pills called Noxycut (after doing much research on the subject). it's a knockoff of Hydroxycut which is made especially for men. has some crazy ass metabolism increasers and caffeine to burn fat blah blah blah but it also has added creatine and tribulus (which is a form of testosterone). i'm going to be straight up and honest i've been super fucking hyped*** the last couple of days. i am noticing results though, which rocks. i'll probably die from them or something, oh well, as long as i look good.

i forgot how much i love weight lifting. i got really into it at the end of senior year (high school) and it really just makes me feel good. i hurt like hell right now but it's one of those good hurts. i've thought since high school i've lost some of my "intensity" but i think i'm starting to get my competitive edge back, which could be scary haha.

since i put my 2 weeks notice in, i have successfully done 0 work in 60 hours so far. man this is awesome.

tomorrow is my last day at west valley and i couldn't be happier.

i love facebook for stalking, it's great. gives me something to do with my day while at work.

i'll probably write something later.

peace and love.

-aaron

time and time again, we fall into the depths of who we are

snow. that's really all i need to say is snow. hell yes!

so let me first just say what has been on my mind lately. i think i'm done drinking for a while. after saturday night i really just don't have a desire to anytime soon. i was so hungover and sick on sunday it wasn't even funny. the thought of alcohol makes me ill.

between tony romo/dallas cowboys and brian johnson/utah utes i'm going to have a heart attack before this football season is over.

you all can judge me all you want, but i miss playing high school football so much.

i love watching my cousins play, (jordan is on the bingham team) austin is still in little league but he's a bad ass. he's going to be such a stud when he's older. he's 10 and he has had like 3 games of 100+ yards of rushing. i love that kid to death, we're buds.

halle-fuckin-lujah! it's my last week at West Valley. i'm going to celebrate so much on thursday. if anyone wants to join in on my celebration (which is still undecided) let me know.

i feel like going on a road trip. i wish i wasn't starting at backcountry so soon (next week) because i really want to go on a road trip to somewhere.

i'm excited to find some new friends when i go back to school/start the new job. i'm in a rut with my social life.

today i started my new diet/workout plan. i've had success so far (since january) and am looking to continue my weight loss to reach my goal. i've come to realize i'm never going to be hollister/abercrombie size but i'm okay with that, my body isn't made to be like that. my shoulders are far too broad to even come close.

i'm about 6'2 and looking to get to about 240 which for that height is a very height/weight proportional weight. i'm not looking to become super skinny but have more of an athletic look. i know most of you don't care although Dani is the only one that reads i think.

i need a new place to work out once i start at backcountry, i will no longer have access to the West Valley facilities. i'm thinking of going to Lifetime Fitness. i'll just have to go in the morning (before 2 pm) or after 10:30 pm.

i really want to go out for sushi and am willing to pay if anyone wants to go.

i guess i should get back to pretending to work. i mean seriously, i'm quitting what's the point in working?

peace and love.

-aaron