let's do this shit

school has started.

wait for it.......wait for it.........I ACTUALLY LIKE CLASS THIS SEMESTER.
-amazing I know

Biology
-awesome professor
Gender and Politics
-interesting people, interesting concept for a class
Enviromental Studies
-combing so many things that I love, plus some pretty cool people
Earth Environments
-Geographyish class that is online and pretty cool

what else is new in my life?

i'm done at Riverton City, whoooo, so sick of working construction related jobs

starting back at Backcountry on Sunday, stoked for a job that I actually LIKE

been in a big music mood lately, a lot of Grateful Dead, Franti and other chill/fun music

my roommate is weird, really weird, won't even talk to me

thinking of going veggie again, this time with some actual knowledge

i love my friends

"listen pal, I'm not your buddy"

kapssh! kapssh kapssh!

i love you all

peace and love.

-aaron

i used to be cool

today i got in a weird mood and decided to look over all my old blogs, journals, xanga, etc.
i used to be "okay" at writing, now it's all the same, lame shit.
this is the bullet from a gun named "what the fuck"?

did i just grow up or have i lost all my creativity? who knows? i don't think it's the latter because i've started writing songs/bass riffs that are decent and go well. i'm also big into photography these days.

maybe i've just realized that i'll leave writing to my other friends like marcie, alison, alex, etc.

found a place to live, hooray! me and b-will, should be a good time. you'd better believe it! you'd all better come and visit/house warm. if not, i'll hate you.

i'm confused on a lot of things right now, oh well. that's how life goes i guess.

been in a big acoustic mood lately. one man, one guitar, gold. mason jennings, jack johnson, willy mason, etc. love

maybe i need to find a "significant other", i hate that term and everything that is associated with it. i feel like i'm becoming too selfish having been single/by myself for so long. i need someone to kick me into a sense of providing/caring for someone else that isn't a "friend or brennan" (yes they're two different categories)

i won't let this build up inside of me, the tension that i feel behind my eyes all day every day. not a pain, more of a catch in my throat. choke? torn into pieces. just a nagging insistence that something is wrong. what the hell is wrong with you? i feel the eyes and ears on me at all times, are they really there though? it isn't real. ....i can't maker them real
not really a torment but i do whatever i want to myself and i don't know what to do, it makes me sick. the unrequited dream

the song that no one sings, doesn't seem fair, now does it? nameless or just thoughtless? a combination of both? who the hell are you and why are you here?

we're not that different, me and you. just misunderstood....probably. butterfly.
it's the story that goes on and on. neverending, from the beginning of time till the nonexistant end. the end is near.

i try to be supportive but how can i? honestly, tell me. it just doesn't make any sense to me......at all. tell me something sweet to get me by. what's the point of it all? no one actually cares or accomplishes anything. just those motivated few that no one really likes deep down. pats on the back and cheers but what does it all mean?

what am i doing wrong? oh god, what the hell am i doing wrong? fuck it, it's not worth dwelling on. take it, leave it or shut up. you have no room to talk. blah blah blah

"she says wake up, it's no use pretending."

why so fake? really though, just trying to be different by being the same. individual? think again. just like the others, those others that i hate so much. jealous? not one bit. i feel bad mostly. so young, so lost, so similar. just be yourself, don't pretend. all a bunch of pretentious bastards anyway. jude me, hate me, mock me, it's like fuel, fuel for my bitter heart.

the confidence swells in me every day. more and more, accumulating in an infinite way. i dig it. keep it coming, bah bah bah bah bah.

bitter, lonely, scared, sad, dejected, lost, confused, emotionless, bastardly, anxious

...........but happy. yes, very happy indeed. i love my life. i love my family. i love my music. i love my friends. whether you be in south jordan, salt lake, riverton, murray, midvale, provo or out of state. i love you.....lots. i may not show it always but i miss those i don't see often and wish you were here at all times. you may read this or you may not but either way it doesn't matter.

venting done.

i love you all.

peace and love.

-aaron

If It Means A Lot

haven't been this happy in minutes

hmmmmmmmm.........not really sure what i'm doing but i'm doing it

4th of july? one of the best holidays EVER

fireworks, family, golfing, giant slip n' slides, freedom, LOVE IT

i love my brother in law, for sure, one of the coolest guys i know

so happy that Big B-ren, B-Will, B-Real, Williams, Brennanan, etc. is home
-may Brenaaron be together once again
-we're taking it to the next level, as an official announcement we are moving in together, apartment theme = UTAH

i'm in love with Mason Jennings, went on another spending spree on iTunes
-i have a problem

i've been in a really good mood lately though

new friends, new adventures are fun

old friends and the usual thing is even better

my cousin is going to Argentina on his mission, I'm so stoked for him

my wish currently? to have enough money to buy a house of my own and two dogs to go along with it, i'm thinking Sugarhouse/Holladay area

i really want to start a restaurant as well, the name of it will be Cardiac's....it's a solid idea, i'm a big fan

getting a tattoo, i'm so happy/excited about it
-called about an appointment today

"if you need a reason as to why you're here, you don't need to look farther than me"

you know that feeling you get that feels good but you don't want it to?
-ah hell who am i kidding

i think way too much about it to be completely honest

just go with the flow

Summer of Love 2009, not so great so far, i need to start working on it

i'm out of thoughts,

i love you all

goodnight

peace and love.

-aaron

leave a message and i'll call you back

what it is!

i'm really really happy

school is over

found a job where i work outside

sister is getting married in a week

"my missionary" gets back in like 10 days....the dynamic duo will be reunited

motorcycle weather

mountain biking

awesome weather

"sweet like candy to my soul"

it's a new day, no matter how you look at it

why be sad/mad when you have life?

breathing, living, love

new brother, stoked

my garden is planted....so many vegetables

i love my family

happy to be so close with my aunt/uncle/cousins, love the Allens

i have full respect for people who give 2 years of their life to a cause
-i know you guys will do great (my cousin jordan and rachel)
-you have all my support, both of you

i wish all of my friends well, even if we don't talk as much or keep in touch, i still think of you

"we were just wasting time.........doing nothing for the fun"

going to see Dave Matthews at the Gorge in August?????? I hope so

haven't wrote a blog in a loooooooooooong time

it feels good

i want to have a dance party

been watching A LOT of Sportscenter lately

been outside a lot as well which makes me extremely happy

want to go hiking and need a buddy

Environmental Studies, new Major? looks like it
-teaching certificate as well

i'm rad, you're rad, let's hug

i love you all

enjoy your days

peace and love.

-aaron

The revolution never comes with a warning!

It's that time, you all knew it was coming...

Obama-Rama has begun!

I couldn't be happier.

It's going to be a great 4 years.

Even if you didn't vote for Obama the least you could do is support our President for the next 4 years since we're all stuck with him for at least 4 years.

All that matters if that you voted.

If you didn't vote, well then you have no room to complain at all about how this government is being run.

I bet everyone is going to be surprised at what comes out of this presidency, there are some new and great ideas that are going to go down and we should all look forward to it.

All I have to say is "Yes we can." no no no, "YES WE DID!"

peace and love.

-aaron

Even Jesus would never forgive what you do

just a warning, if you're sensitive to harsh language, just stop here, this is going to be a very explicit blog.

i warned you.

let me just start out with what sparked this little blog.



















i mean really????

you've got to be fucking kidding me. what is wrong with people? i saw this exact bumper sticker on someone's big fucking lifted truck today and all I did was flip them off....ridiculous

the f-15 is a HOMICIDE bomba

since when is peace settle with weapons? just because the US thinks it's okay. it's bullshit. that's all it is. i understand the middle east has been fighting over religion since life began but this is different entirely.

it doesn't matter who you are, we're all one people!

this guy is probably the same guy that went and bought a semi-automatic because we have a black democrat as a president. EVERYONE WATCH OUT HE'S GONNA DONE TAKE OUR GUNS

how ignorant can people be? fuck man, peace should have nothing to do with weapons.

there's too many people these days that have this mentality as well. it's absolutely ridiculous. "you don't have my view? oh well, i'll just shoot you and the rest of your country until you're so defenseless that you will just lay down in front of me, then i'll kill you anways"

i'm pissed, i'm done with people, if it's anyone that deserves to have gun control acted upon them, it's you, you mother fucker

i'm done.

here should be our true peace sign.

broken rifle symbol









legalize it! peace symbol



















the rastas know what it's all about

peace and love.

-aaron

ps: Bob Dylan put it best.

Read it and believe it.

Come you masters of war
You that build all the guns
You that build the death planes
You that build the big bombs
You that hide behind walls
You that hide behind desks
I just want you to know
I can see through your masks

You that never done nothin'
But build to destroy
You play with my world
Like it's your little toy
You put a gun in my hand
And you hide from my eyes
And you turn and run farther
When the fast bullets fly

Like Judas of old
You lie and deceive
A world war can be won
You want me to believe
But I see through your eyes
And I see through your brain
Like I see through the water
That runs down my drain

You fasten the triggers
For the others to fire
Then you set back and watch
When the death count gets higher
You hide in your mansion
As young people's blood
Flows out of their bodies
And is buried in the mud

You've thrown the worst fear
That can ever be hurled
Fear to bring children
Into the world
For threatening my baby
Unborn and unnamed
You ain't worth the blood
That runs in your veins

How much do I know
To talk out of turn
You might say that I'm young
You might say I'm unlearned
But there's one thing I know
Though I'm younger than you
Even Jesus would never
Forgive what you do

Let me ask you one question
Is your money that good
Will it buy you forgiveness
Do you think that it could
I think you will find
When your death takes its toll
All the money you made
Will never buy back your soul

And I hope that you die
And your death'll come soon
I will follow your casket
In the pale afternoon
And I'll watch while you're lowered
Down to your deathbed
And I'll stand o'er your grave
'Til I'm sure that you're dead